Fear... of succeeding? Help!

So I guess I've been the fat girl for a long time.
It's my go to for every failure.
For example;
"I didn't get that job because I was fat,"
"Those women don't like me because I'm fat"
"I didn't get the acknowledgement that I should of, because I'm fat"
"Nothing good happens to me professionally because I'm fat"
"Normal people don't like fat people"
"That's why I am not where I want to be in life,
because of being fat."

It sounds so lame when I write it out.
The answer is not to be fat anymore right? Yeah sounds easy.
How about taking responsibility for all the things I should be doing and just aren't.

It's been 4 days since I blogged last.
I'm ashamed to say I've run straight into
"The Terror Barrier"
Dun Dun Dun... 
(The terror barrier: when the voices in your head keep you from doing something.)
Oh lord!!!
How do I get out.
Help please!!

Anyway blogging does help.  I hope it helps others too!