Chattering Voices In My Head

So I took a few days off after my progress picture.
Now it's back to business.
The Release Plan advocates taking a week off every 12 weeks.
So since it was only 90 days,
I took 5 days off.
Honestly,
IT WAS AWESOME!!!
But I realize I will never achieve my goals living my life like that everyday.
So I was actually anxious to get in a work out today.


It was hard getting back to routine this morning.
But I did it.
Even though halfway through that old defeatist voice rose up and said,
"It's your first day back, it's alright to quit halfway through!"

SHUT UP STUPID VOICE!!!!!
So I finished my work out and I feel good.
HA!!!
Next 90 days here I come!

Drum Roll Please....

Okay here goes!
My second 90 day progress picture.
I was so scared to do this but after seeing the picture,
I look alright.
Notice that I'm wearing a dress, and showing some leg.
I haven't done that in 15 years.
(forgive the sunburned neck, we went to the races yesterday, hence the redneck :-) Yuk )

From starting point to today.

This gives me motivation to keep going!
Thank you for all of your kind words and support.
So much appreciation.

And now for my next trick......
Progress picture #3 in 90 days from now.
May 22nd it is!!!

Whew, glad that's over.....

Now time for really working hard!!
Let's turn it up!!

I Don't Know if I Can Do This!!

I am terrified about this progress picture!!
Three days from now!
I realize that it's not a "before and after"
Just how far I've come
But terrified of judgement just the same.

Why do people find it so easy to judge
And so difficult to support?

While I'm weeding the judgmental people out of my life
Replacing them with the supportive seems to be a challenge.


Oh well!!
Moving on.....
Did my favorite fat blaster workout today... Ate on plan...
But damn if I still didn't get enough water in!!!!
Blast you water!!!

No matter...
How long it takes...
I will Release this weight..
And be healthy!

Self Sabotage

I do this so well.
Not just in my dieting,
but in my whole life.

The difference is with the Release Plan is I recognize what I'm doing.
And if I can recognize the behavior,
I can replace it with a better, positive behavior.

This is a process.
Sometimes a slow one.
But progress, no matter how small, is still progress.


I'll admit, I've been naughty for a few days in a row.
I put pressure on myself about this progress picture.
UGH!!

But getting back on track is becoming easier and easier.
Small YAY
Giving myself a break,
after all...
I'm human.

If I let Others Talk to Me The Way I Talk to Me...

I would punch them in the nose!!!
                    I say the meanest things to myself!
Why do I do that?

                            Who knows...

But from now on when I catch myself doing it..
I will stop immediately and talk to myself as if I'm my best friend.
Because I am.
                            Nobody knows me like me.
And while I may not be perfect...
                            I'm the perfect me.

So There!!!


Oh my Goodness!!
Still doing great on my workouts.

But terrified about this progress picture.
I don't want to disappoint anyone.
Especially myself.
But I can't think about that,
just need to...
KEEP GOING!!!!!

Stay tuned, one week from today...........
Oh Mercy!

Failure Teaches Success......

So the Japanese saying goes.....
Well Then
I must be a F#%*ing genius!!!

Trying so hard to stay on track.
It's a challenge not to sabotage myself, as I do so often.
I started this blog as an accountability.  So it's on my mind most of the time.
But that's the whole idea..
To help me stay focused on the weight Release.

My progress picture is less than two weeks from now.
Holy Moly!!!

Work has been sooo busy.  That's a good thing.
It keeps me from sitting on my ass.

(Sorry to be so crass, but it's the truth!)
Keeping up my workouts, but cheating a little to much in the food area.
I feel like I'm going backwards!

Oh Lord!
That progress picture gives me nightmares!!
Wish me luck!!

This is NOT a Race!

I keep having to remind myself of that.
I have a friend at work who has lost over 60 pounds!
Yea!
Good for her!
Honestly!
But....
(Nothing away from her, she's doing the work...)
She's going to a doctor and on medication and shots and other things...
I'm not.
Doing it the hard way.
Naturally.
Which apparently takes longer!!!!!
Oh well...
As long as I'm moving forward as they say in Release.

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Took a long walk on the beach this morning.
Had a little help from the locals writing in the sand, as you can see.
Keeping the faith, and staying on plan.
Soooo hard sometimes!

Progress Picture in two weeks............
Oh My!!

Inertia?

A body in motion tends to stay in motion.

Trying so hard to stay in motion!!!  

In my head I say to myself,  "don't try just do".

Okay head.....

Whatever.....

It's hard staying on track all the time.  I gotta give myself a break every now and then.

Right?  Okay maybe not. 

Haven't worked out for two days!!!!!

Been a little sick.  But I'm staying on plan.  

And all I think about is that darned

PROGRESS PICTURE

UGH!!!!!!

Two more weeks, 

Two more weeks.....Oh Lord!

Nothing Happens Overnight

If your like me, I expect results at the snap of a finger.
But most things don't happen that way.
At least for me.
I have to keep reminding myself that this is a long term solution, lasting forever.
So it may take a while.
                        So just keep going!!!
                        KEEP GOING!

Drat!  I had a meeting this morning and missed my workout.
And I was on such a roll!
But I'll exercise on my free day, problem solved!
Eating on track.
Gotta get more water in though!
Curse you water monster!!!
I'll get you yet!